My Narcissism.....Shhhh!!!!!! :p

Uploaded these pics to my labtop for a few weeks but have no chance to post it, because I'm just so lazy.
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Since I have no mood to blog anything lately, so just uploaded some pics to share with you guys. Hope you guys like it.
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But I have a reminder here:- Please do not fall in love for me ya...wahahaha. (Hahahaha!!!! Just bear with me, I'm just so thick face. :p)
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That's all for tonight!!! Don't dream of me ya...Wahahaha! :p
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I'm away to KL!!!

Dear all,

I won't be around start from TODAY until 30.06.08 for my Business Trip.

I think I'll be busy for my company stuffs at KL.

Anyway, who wanna treat me a drink or food, feel free to look for me. :p

Ok...see you guys after 30.06.08.

HEY U GUYS!!! MUST MISS ME VERY MUCH YA!!! SMUACKS!!! (puke~~~!! So geli!!)

Lots of love from me,
-Florence-

Depression...

I'm very depressed lately.

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No matter how unhappy and how depressed I'm, I'm still trying my best to smile and cheer up everyone who's around me.
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No one know how painful, how depressed, how pressure, how unhappy and how sad inside my bottom heart because I'm still smile like a happy pie to them.
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When you guys need my help, I try my best to discuss with the Top Management to find the best solution to resolve your problems.
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When you guys need me by your side and listen to your ups and downs, I'm the one who will be there and share your every thoughts quitely and calm down your moody minds no matter when it's.
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When I start to feel the unfairness from the way others are treating you, I start to worry about you and start to think a way to resolve your problems and try to make you happy again.
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But, sometimes your kindness will not be APPRECIATED by them. When problems solved and got what they want, they blamed you for being so busybody by telling their problems to the Top Management.
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This's the feces I get:-
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He told you he won't tell you anything anymore because he said there's NO TRUSTWORTHY from you anymore.
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WTF!!!!!

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Being nice and helpful to others will not get any appreciation. You will only get the BLAME and FECES. REMEMBER THIS!!! When they are unhappy and down, DO NOT HELP THEM OUT, JUST IGNORED EVERYTHING, PRETEND AS YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING.
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Now then I know, a gentleman's PRIDE, FACE and EGOISM is always much more important than KINDNESS, RELATIONSHIP and TRUSTWORTHY.
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Yes! I know all of these from now on.
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So, I will remain silence from now on. YES!! SILENCE IS GOLD!!!
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YES!! PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM ME & PLEASE DO NOT WHINE WITH ME IF YOU THINK THAT I'M REALLY NOT TRUSTWORTHY OR RELIABLE TO YOU ANYMORE. MOVE BACK TO YOUR OWN WORLD.

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Don't ever think that I'm really that free or busybody to tell anyone about your problems, I know many problems from others too but mostly I keep them as dark secrets inside my heart unless I think there's a neccessary that I should do and voice out something to get back your benefits and entitlements that belongs to you.
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THAT'S ALL! No matter how, I wish you good luck in everything. Thanks for the very happy moment that have been share with you. I will always remember in my bottom heart.
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SILENCE PLS!!!!

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I feel that I'm very stupid, because I cried for this since last night and tonight. I'm very tired. Set me free! I CRIED BECAUSE I REALLY CARE OF YOU. DON'T U UNDERSTAND?

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Hopefully this's not a wrong turn!!!

A decision made tonight, finally...
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Yes! I need to give up something, I need to hold this decision firmly, no more U-turn for me this time.
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And, hopefully, this's not a wrong turn for me. I hope I won't be regret after all.
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Something that doesn't suit me, though it has been with me for many years, it's still better to let it go. Perhaps I can stay more happily when I lose it. YES! I will try my best!
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No more craps for me, no more disturbance for me, no more silly things or words for me, no more worries for me anymore and etc.
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I hope good luck and peaceful will always by my side after that.
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God bless me!

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P/S: Though I can't bear with the feeling of losing it, though I'm hurting and sad, it's still gonna be my CONCLUSION.
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When I have chosen to post this up, that means I'm not talking craps anymore. I'm serious!

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I have exposed your face here. Too bad~~!! :p

Warning: Some of the mc.net's members' face will be TOTALLY EXPOSED in this blog.

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Last Saturday night, I met some of the mc.net's member. This's the very first time I met them up. Normally, I do not meet up with my net friends one, because I'm just so SHY.. Wahahaha!!!
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First Round

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Venue: Rex Box

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Left: huilee (I tell you! She's damn funny and she can sing very well. TRUST ME!!!)

Right: kimGo (The guy who loves to sing Karaoke a lot)
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Left: BBeve (She's just like a baby. So cute, right?)

Right: Amethys (Actually, I dunno her much yet because I seldom chat with her)
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ME!!!! Wahahaha.....I like to sing as well. They told me I can sing quite well, am I right?

(Memang tak tahu malu :p)
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Left: dasolve (The miri food hunting guy. He's funny and he loves to bring his group of friends to hunt for nice food in Miri! Visit his blog then you'll know.)
Right: Saf (I totally no idea he's Malay or Chinese. He doesn't look like Chinese but also doesn't look like Malay. Who can tell me?)

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Left: cacatkia (He's a small boss of a very famous SAU PAO coffee shop at Boulevard area. The answer is very obvious, ok? :p)

Right: Lim Pek (He doesn't look like 30 years old, right? I think he got a baby face leh. Am I right?)

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Walao....what are they trying to do there? KISSING??? *no eyes see*
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Wanna know more about them? Remember always login to the flash chat room of mc.net. I'm sure that you can always see them hanging around there.

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Second Round

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Venue: Wing II

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After that, I went for my second round to meet up my colleagues and other friends. Seriously, I like Wing II, a very comfortable place and definitely have more new songs.

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Alex!!! He's one of the mc.net's member too. He's one of my colleague. GUESS his nick! Hahaha...
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Karen (my colleague) & Ah Bien (A new friend of mine that I just knew him through Alex on that night)

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Top: Shiva (Her nick is familiar to you? She's one of the mc.net's member too. The cute girl who is always posting nice dresses, nice bags in the forum) and Ah Boon (Shiva's dear)
Bottom: Me & Ah Lek (He's one of the small boss of a very famous cafe in Miri. CLUE: near Mega Hotel. And, HE'S ONE OF THE MC.NET's MEMBER too. GUESS his nick again!!!)

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Left: kimGo was so enjoying with his singing. He grabbed my mic and sang my song. :(

Right: Ah Lek is ACTING CUTE again. :p

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I back home around 3:30am. It was a fun night for me.

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Lastly, nice seeing you all especially huilee, cacatkia, Lim Pek, BBeve, Saf, dasolve and Amethys. Hope to hang out with you all again.

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CHEERS!!!!

I'm trying my best to be TOUGH!!!!

I'm having bad headache lately, probably caused by over stress and can't sleep well every night.

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The 2 so-called professional IDIOTS created too much POLITICAL issues in the office nowadays. Most of us are working under stress now and we need to use SHIELD to defend and protect ourselves very well to avoid getting any SHIT from them everyday. It's very tiring!

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Well, I know I have a soft characteristics which I do not like to fight or step down others to climb up to higher position. I do not like to deal with the POLITICAL issues. I HATE IT SO MUCH! I just wish that I can get back to a harmony working environment like last time when the 2 IDIOTS have not joined us yet.

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I have thought of to hand in my RESIGNATION lately. But, I know quite a number of them are standing by my side and support me quitely. Some of them have come over to me and given me many useful consultations and good advices to make me stay included MY BOSS.

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They asked me to be TOUGH! Tough to take the challenge and fight with the 2 so-called professional IDIOTS. Tough enough to stand out and voice up when they are trying to step down and bully me. Tough enough to tell and explain the truth to the Top Management when they are trying to toxic the Top Management's minds and thoughts. Tough enough to fight for the benefits and entitlements that I should have for all this while.

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Yes! I'M TRYING MY BEST TO BE TOUGH!!! I want to be a TOUGH woman.

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Sometimes, being nice to others will not get any appreciation or awards. I'm learning to be a little bad to protect myself now. Do not trust everyone completely who are working under the same roof with you especially those political IDIOTS.

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God Bless Me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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They flooded my name in mc.net's chat room!!!!

Wowee~~~~~!!!! Some of them flooded my name in mc.net's chat room.

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They are just so CUTE~~~~!!!!!!! Always give me big warm welcome greetings when I login. Love you all~!!! (I'm SERIOUS, ok? Wahahaha!)
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See!!! This's the way they welcomed me, can feel the warmth from them, right? I feel so touching, SERIOUSLY!!!
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Flooded by BMyself.

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Flooded by Dasolve and BMyself again.

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From this chat room, some of the members PM (Private Message) me and chatted with me. And, I found out something from them, some of them actually is my SILENT READERS of my blog. SO TOUCHING!!! (Oh shit! I feel I wanna cry out my heart now. Wahahaha!)

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I'M SHOCKED!!!! YES!!! Because I never knew that I got silent readers all this while.

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BMyself, thanks for telling me that "You're my No. 1 Fan!!!" and you're reading my blog all this while. (Updated: Oh gosh! This little guy started his 1st post just because of me. How touching I am now. Go to read his blog PLSSSSSSSSSSSS!)

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teamGD, thanks for telling me that you are enjoying when you are reading my blog.

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Sileast20, you are the one given me the biggest support to motivate me to continue my blogging. I'll always remember what you have told me. Yes! I will try my best to blog. :)

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Updated: Dasolve, I don't know you are one of my silent reader here too until you told me in MSN. Sorry!! My mistake!! How could I forgotten you here. My bad! Thanks for your silent support here. :)

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And, some of the Anonymous silent readers who are reading my blog!

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Hereby, I would like to extend my gratitude to all of you.

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I FEEL THANKFUL with my full SINCERITY.

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Appreciate all of your support so much! :)

I'm broke now...

Facing financial problem lately due to furnishing my house, some minor touch-ups, installations and renovations.
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Seriously, move into a new house is not an easy task. (I know it's easy for some of the rich people out there). It needs plenty of $$$ CASH $$$.
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As at my current financial ability, I just can afford to buy a SINGLE-STOREY TERRACE HOUSE. (I know some of them surely will say "CHEH!!! I THOUGHT WHAT KIND OF BIG HOUSE WAH? SINGLE-STOREY TERRACE HOUSE ALSO NEED TO SHOW OFF MEH?") I know I'm not a rich woman. :(
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Though the burden to pay off my housing loan every month at the moment is a little bit heavy for me, but I enjoy the excitement of owning my FIRST OWN HOME SWEET HOME.
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At least, I'm happy to see one of my own achievement now. MY DREAM WILL COME TRUE VERY SOON!!!
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Have finished my furnitures part, now it's time for me to choose my electrical appliances. Too many things have to buy, LACK OF CASHHHHHHHHHHHH.........Shit!!!
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Eheemm...my dearest friendSsS, know what to do lar, right? Kekekeke....SPONSOR ME SOMETHING IF YOU GOT HEART. Wahahahahaha!!! (I know I'm thick face! :P)
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Here is my list, I swear I'm not greedy, because the remaining ones are not that costly (I SWEAR, Hahahahaha) :-
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1) TOSHIBA Waching Machine @ [RM750.00]
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2) KAINON Air-Conditioner, 1HP x 4 @ [RM790.00] each
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3) PANASONIC Water Heater x 2 @ [RM450.00] each
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That's all!!! So little, right? I TOLD YOU ALREADY, I'M NOT GREEDY lohhh... :p

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Hahahaha......Anyone wanna sponsor me? Give me a bug, ok? (I know I'm dreaming again. Just don't wake me up from my sweet dream, ok? Who knows there's a kind person come and rescue me, right?)

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No matter how, my friends out there, always send your good lucks to me, I'm DAMN UNLUCKY lately. Send as many as GOOD LUCKS to me....please!

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Can't wait to move into my new house.

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My New House!!!! Do you believe?

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Hahahaha!!! SURE NOT BELIEVE!!! Because this's MY DREAM HOUSE - Tiger Woods's House!

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And, I just can afford this...........

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This's my house!!! Hahahaha!!!!

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Just kidding!!! This should be my dream house when I was a kid. Smile!!!

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I NEED CASHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I NEED MONEYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

I'm in tense!

Sorry! Did not update my blog for a week because I'm not in mood lately.
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Many bad things had just happened around me in this VERY BADLUCK month.
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I'm in tense to talk about what had happened all over again.
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I just want to remain in SILENCE now since what I explained before has been treated as RUBBISH TALK. Then, it's better to keep myself silent.
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I start to believe this quote:-

' Never explain yourself to anyone.

Because the person who likes you doesn't need it, and

the person who dislikes you won't believe it. '

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Boss and Managers are always RIGHT no matter what faults they have made. Always believe this statement, please!

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I can keep quite and undertake your faults for once but not for several times. I'm just a normal humanbeing and a small position staff. Please do not ever blame and accuse me for nothing anymore to show your FAKE PROFESSIONALISM.

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Do not compare and keep complaining how bad is your current company with your previous WELL-KNOWN LISTED COMPANY in Miri, if you were doing very well in your previous so-called-VERY-PROFESSIONAL company, then why you chosen to join your current company.

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Do not insult anyone capabilities and knowledge when you are not a professional as well. Look at the mirror now and you will see who is the IMMATURE and NON-PROFESSIONAL one.

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Do not tell me you have the right to train me when you are not even a good and responsible leader. Do not throw everything to me when everyone is not ready yet.

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Do not compare and complain all of your current colleagues with your previous colleagues when we are working under the same roof. If you are very unsatisfied, why don't you move back to your so-called-VERY-PROFESSIONAL company rather than keep whining how bad is your current company now?

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Don't know why, the more the RUBBISH from the so-called-PROFESSIONAL-COMPANY join our company. We feel tougher and more tension to work in this company now.

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The harmony of our company has gone. Now, the so-called-PROFESSIONAL-MANAGERS from the so-called-PROFESSIONAL-COMPANY behave very AGGRESSIVELY and CREATE TOO MANY CHAOS and POLITICS in the company now and make everyone working in tense, uncomfortable and unhappy environment.

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Do believe this: ' What kind of leader will bring up what kind of assistants in the department. ' Yes!!! All of her assistants are behave the same like her. Like the mother and daugthers.

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ANY FAULTS MADE, PUSH AWAY!!! COMPLAIN TO THE TOP MANAGEMENT IMMEDIATELY TO PROTECT THEMSELVES AT THE FIRST PLACE AND LET THE INNOCENT PERSONS GET THE SHIT LATER!

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WTF!!!!!!!!!!!

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There's no more motivation for me to stay in my current company. I will leave ASAP after I get my things done.

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Hardwork NOT NECESSARY GET appreciation,

Golden Finger ALWAYS GET the promotion and trust.

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This world is so UNFAIR! Bear with it!

I know I'm FAT...Stop complaining me!!!

To certain people out there,
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I know I'm FAT, but please do not always say "EI!! YOU'RE GETTING FATTER AND FATTER! YOU SHOULD GO TO ON DIET NOW." when you suddenly meet me up at somewhere else.

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Gals always do mind others said they look FAT. Gals always mind their body shape so much no matter in what kind of age range. Gals always mind they look ugly and FAT in the pictures taken.

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I know this's the fact, I'M FAT!!!! I GAINED MANY WEIGHTS!!! But, please do not always tell me that "EI! YOU'RE FAT!" in front of her friends or colleagues. You always can tell her personally (I do accept the fact when you come over and tell me personally) but not to the public (aloud your tone and tell me a few metres far away). I'm EMBARRASSING, ok?

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I have to evade from all of the CHOCOLATES from now on that given by all of my colleagues and my dear. DON'T EVER BUY ME ANY CHOCOLATE especially Ferrerro Rocher. Don't date me out for dinner or supper anymore from now on. Don't invite me for Coffee Bean, San Francisco or Haagen-Dazs Ice-Cream at Mr. Ho anymore. Don't ask me join for beer drinking session when hangout with me.

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I want to ON DIET!!!

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I was very skinny a few years back, I was around 43 Kgs. Most of them said I look like MALNUTRITION and I always fall sick easily last time because I have weak immunity. And, I have smaller BOOBS last time too. WAHAHAHA!

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That's why I gained back some weights to make myself look healthier, better and sexier. Yes!!! I have bigger BOOBS now (I mean SLIGHTLY bigger than last time, ok?).

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And, I found out most of the guys like gals with a lil' flesh rather than skeleton, right? Correct me if I'm wrong! At least, my dear like the way where I'm now. :)

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And, as a matter of fact, I have less suitors a few yrs back compared to now, probably I was too skinny last time and I'm turning sexier now (WAHAHAHAHA!!!! Bear with me again!!! I know I'm THINK FACE and BEH PAI SEH again!!!!).

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Well, I think I'm not that FAT, right? Still acceptable, right?
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Please tell me I'M NOT FAT!!!! PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

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(In my dream...)